How I wish I'm not the only one who's concerned bout things all the time....
How I wish I can do things that I want and not those I have to...
You know, I used to be very negative, I complain about every single thing I get to complain about... Very very negative.... but now I feel I'm being very positive. No, not that I talk good all the time... I don't, I 'm still a human, an imperfect one.... So don't judge me for that....
Just that, I'm not able to see the bad in something, instead I try to look at it from a different perspective... Though its a problem for; something or someone, I try to see how it can make me stronger and teach me something. This pile of work I have; well, yes its sad as my holidays were just meant to finish my assignment. Yea, I did push myself harder. I did more than I usually do, I am more focused than usual. No, I didn't manage to finish any major assignments but still, I improved from previous breaks. I didn't go for movies, I didn't go out that much, I didn't go anywhere to travel or shop. Most people would say I'm pathetic, sad, boring, pitiful. But I don't think so, and I don't feel so. Coz I felt good. Many things I believe I could have been able to complete it if I pushed myself harder. But I don't regret spending my 2 weeks like this; assignment-ing and working (working as in doing the stuff I need to do) I don't feel its a waste. For sometime I was thinking, if I knew bout the promo tickets, I would have gone back for 3-4 days. But come to think of it again, I think I was fine staying here for the 2 weeks. I'm fine with it. Very fine. I still got to talk to my mum. Got to chat with my bro. So, yea...
And as I said, I could have done even better if I pushed myself even harder. Its ok. I have 3 more days. I can do it. I can always do it coz I have Jesus with me =)
I did my planning, I prayed, I have faith, now I must put it to practice. =)
-SH3R3N-
