Sheren does not know what to name this post

Its been really long since I last blogged. Can't remember when was the last time. So many things I wanted and want to talk about. Just so many. The only One who actually listens to every single thing I say is my Beloved one. But then again, I feel like I'm the one who's always doing the talking and not listening to Him till He has to tell me things through others and other ways. Sorry for that Lord. At times, I know I've always been very dependent on my own strength and also on others. I'm also sorry for that. At times I also feel lonely. Very lonely. Don't know who I can share things to. Sometimes I admit, actually most of the time, I limit the things I talk with others or share with them. Because I don't know how they'll take it or what they'll think about it. Oh yes, I'm VERY people-conscious.
Lately I've been sighing a lot too. I'm just disappointed with myself. Am I a perfectionist or am I just pure stupid? Many times people scolded me for calling myself stupid. But seriously, I deserve it. There are many things to do, but where's my time management? If others can still do it, why can't I? Oh and another thing. Why is it that whenever someone talks about something that is happening but it doesn't seem like so well or so good or so positive, people just blame them and say they're being very negative or pessimistic or complaining a lot? Well, its something that is happening. Good or bad. What's wrong with talking about it? Talking about it doesn't necessarily mean they're complaining. Some people are just purely complaining, even complain every single thing they can get to complain about. But some people aren't. They're just pouring it out. What's wrong with that?
Now I just feel like letting it out too.
Sheren, is this how you wanna continue living your life? What's gonna happen to you?
I try not to let out the negative, but sometimes it just helps. You know what I mean? I'm not perfect. Its not easy to be a a good example always. I'm still growing, learning.There's so much I wanna share. Really. And no, they're not all emo-tic like this. Maybe tonight.

I love You, Lord...

-Sh3r3n-