FRUSTRATION!!!

Why is it that you can only know how things are when you ARE in that situation or place? Isn't there any possibility that you can actually know how things are though you've never been there? Do you have to go to Paris to know how Paris is like? Then what are TV shows for? What is the internet for? What are books and magazines for? And what are stories for? And Paris can't really be the example for all situations, I know that. I'm not stupid. I can even think what people are thinking. Not always, I'm not a psychic. But sometimes, you just know how things are. Coz' you've heard about it. You've even seen it. Doesn't mean if you've never been in a place or situation before, means you've never seen it before. Maybe I just didn't want to be there after seeing how it is like? Ever thought of that? And making assumptions using how you felt or how you thought of it before as something that others would feel and think too, doesn't help. Coz' people are different. And they think differently. Assumptions are never the best option. Most of the time, it ends up as you degrading others. That's really not nice you know.

And some people don't realise that when they talk, they're actually showing comparisons of how they are and how others are. And using that as an excuse saying that they want us to be equally good too isn't helping. Sometimes people think its not THAT hard to change things. Well, have you ever been in that situation? No, you've been in a situation, a place which is already strong and stable. So, you've been trained to be good too. You've been trained to be strong too. And it was some strong people who trained those people who train you to be how they are now. It didn't just happen like that. So you can't expect someone, who is not strong and not equipped to do the same thing what those strong guys did. Plus, when you're not in an established place. Its not that we don't get it what you're trying to say and that you're just trying to help. But you make it seem like we're REALLY not bothered and we are not doing anything about it when we actually can. Seriously. You think we don't want to be better? You think we're not doing anything about it? Maybe not all. But some of us are. But there are certain limits that's hindering us in doing more. And there are other responsibilities and stuff that we need to do, so we can't just spend our 24/7 on trying build something. At least we're trying. And when you're trying do something from scratch and not many are helping out or even bother to support, things are not easy.

Sometimes I just try to keep quiet and listen. I try my best to see it in your point of view. But most of the time it just doesn't seem right. And I'm human. I have feelings. I have emotions. I get upset when I hear not nice things. And realise it or not, sometimes people say things that downgrade others, but what's more disappointing is, they deny it even when people actually tell it to them.

Come on la. Try to put yourself in other people's shoes. And you can't do that if you don't try to listen to them first.

Yes, I'm SERIOUSLY gonna start studying at 9 till tomorrow morning. Trust me, I'm REALLY doing it. For both my paper tomorrow and my law paper. You'll my happy post soon saying that I studied. Oh, and I just realised when I saw my notes just now that I might have missed some very important details for one of my question for my IHRM paper and that made me think if I had missed more for my other questions. But then I thought, screw it. I did my best. Now its just up to Him. I'm still getting an A for my IHRM. And for those people who think that I'm just a small girl who doesn't know anything much and this and that, you can live in your world thinking like that about other people for the rest of your life. And also continue with your talk about how you've been like that before and how you've changed and how you want to see us changed too. It just doesn't help with the fact that you're still downgrading people with some of the stuff you say and the way you say it.

-Sheren-