Tiredness...

I'm still awake. Just like according to plan. But, I'm really feeling tired and weak. Really very tired. Exhausted. Like my body parts are gonna fall apart. I used to be able to stay awake for 2 nights. Sometimes close to 3 nights. Now, though I sleep a lot, like 8-10 hours a day, I'm not able to stay awake for long. Like I can't stay up at night. I'll feel really tired. I'll feel very terrible. And I can't even take coffee anymore. Like, the taste is getting from bad to worse. And its actually making me even more tired. Trying to substitute coffee with sweets now though. Have a small jar of orange and barley sweets. Really hope that helps but I don't think its actually gonna help or make any difference at all. I really feel terrible now. Like, I don't know how to describe it. I'm afraid I can't stand my day later. I have paper in the morning, prayer meeting then, meeting TJ regarding Australs' stuff, do my proposal and other stuff that needs to be done ASAP since I won't be free at all tomorrow/Saturday, and study for Commercial Law. God, this time, I've got nothing else to say beside I need strength. Your strength. I really feel miserable now. Why can't I stay awake anymore? Its not like I'm THAT old. My eating habits are somewhat similar like before. I think I need to start taking glucose drink again. The blackcurrant one definitely. But I'm broke. I need to talk to Mummy about this. I should be able to stay awake, at least for one night. My immune system is getting weak again. Its really not helping. I mean, its really not the right time. I wonder if I can get the glucose drink at pharmacies since I have the health coupon. Need to go check it out at 1B, then KF maybe. God, can I at least get 50% of the lecture notes in my head now till my paper is over? No, make 100 % straight. Can You please send someone to mentor me/take care of me so that I get organized and disciplined and stop lazying around and also stop procrastinating and get back on track with what I'm supposed to be doing and finishing? I do need a mentor. I'm just afraid and not sure whom to ask and how to ask.

For now, I need strength, Pa. Really feeling terrible now. My body is like gonna break apart anytime now. I don't know if I can even walk for my exam tomorrow. That's one thing, being able to actually do my exam is another. I need to score for this paper. Supposed be the easiest paper for this semester. Can, Pa?

I'm gonna go on the bed again now, for a while. Then, shower maybe. Or else, back to studying/reading my notes for the morning paper. Should stop drinking the coffee. Better go high on sugar. Afraid of diabetic though, plus with the family history. So, need to get the glucose ASAP. Mummy, wish you were here.....