Now what...how...?

Didn't do my assignment last night. Was very tired, like I said yesterday. Mistake: went to bed (with the intention of resting and trying call him, which ended up with sleeping) before making and drinking some coffee. So, consequence? Didn't manage to do any assignment at all. Didn't even listen to the songs I opened and was supposed to practice by listening, which is like my only available option to prepare for practice. Like my pre-practice. So, slept, woke up at not sure what time, but I remember I kept checking my phone if there were any messages or miss call from him. None. Not even one. None at all till around 12.10pm. Nice. That was like nearly 36 hours?Disappointed? Yes. Coz there was never a day, as far as I can remember that I never sms-ed him. Maybe there were days I didn't call but at least I messaged. I'm ok with that, I expected that he'll be busy and tired once he gets back. But even today/tonight he's out. What the heck? Well, yea we could have talked during the day. But EVERY Saturday I go for e.CF. He knows that. And he knows there are times I'll only get back at around 11. That's the latest. Well, if he told me EARLIER that he'll be out tonight, I might at least try to contact him earlier. Very sad la.

FYI, no this is not about my boyfriend. Not that I don't like him or anything. Just, its not till that extend yet. And there are reasons for that. I'm sorry, to him.

So, tonight, supposed/must/want/will do my assignments. I'm not gonna trust myself, but Him. I know He won't let me down. I will, let myself, and even Him down. But He never will. Only He can help me out here. With His wisdom, and strength. And Pa, I don't wanna fall asleep in church tomorrow. So, please? Do something that I can finish my Commercial Law and Int. Marketing group assignment by tonight and still won't fall asleep during service tomorrow? And ya Dad, can I relax a while first, watch a movie first? While I eat at least. And while I google for info. Can can? :)

And, I've been eating alot lately. Really alot. Why? I'm getting tired and weak very easily. And hungry too. Not really that very hungry and that often hungry. But its the weak part. I feel very weak lately. Can't breathe well, can't walk up the stairs and hill. Can't walk that fast. Chest pain at times. Stomach and kidney pain. Headaches and even migraine. Why? What's wrong? I don't need this now you know. It's really not helping at all. Now, having the gastritis pain again. I ate quite alot yesterday night till today. Really alot. Though I did skip and miss meals, but it's better than how I've been always. Still, I'm getting the gastritis pain.

And thank God for Edwin. Thank God that he came down. Talked to him about the Kudat Mission Trip. Gonna talk more about it with him tomorrow. And gonna keep in touch with him and Reuben, to guide and advice regarding the trip. But above all, it's Him that I wanna and gonna refer to. Well, I believe that even these two brothers are got sent to help me out. Besides, they did this before, and I'm discussing with them. So, not a problem kan? :)

I noticed that recently, my posts has been rather long. I don't know how long I'll blog like this, But, it's good in a way, and bad in another. Good; I can reflect all these in the future, or when I need it. Bad, takes up quite a sum of time, which I believe, I know, I can use for other things to get done. Sorry. Something I get to indulged in this till I don't realize it. Its just everything that's in my heart and in my mind ba. Not like anyone is gonna read it too :p 8-)

Cheryl shared today during Grad's Night. Her first time. It was good. Made me think about somethings too. Will share about it next time. Her sharing and my thoughts, well, if I can remember till then. Sorry. :(

I better stop now. Get some coffee, or maggi, since I'm hungry, again :(

Then, get a movie, get my connection for internet. Get started with my work.

-Signing out for now-