Sheren is back!!! :)

Yay!!! I'm back....back to town, and back to blogging.....been a while since I posted anything. Not that I didn't have anything, had alot of things to say out, my experiences, my trips, my memories....lotsa stuff, but no time, yeah, too busy with everything else.

So, am having a dilemma now.....what should I talk bout now...Hmm...

Well, what's on my mind now....? to many things.

One of it, birthdays...yea, three of my friends ?(as far as i can remember) are celebrating their birthdat today. That made me think of my birthday too, and also what I think about birthdays and celebrating birthdays.

Honestly, I don't think I'm a birthday person. I mean, I wish my friends or anyone whom I know are celebrating their birthday, but I'm not a gift person. Past few days, I've been struggling to get a gift for one of my friend; a guy. I knew what I wanted to get him; after having long thoughts bout it, and when I went for the gift hunting, I got very dissapointed; I couldn;t find what I wanted anywhere.....not even something similar to it. So, I don't have a gift for him....

Well, even I myself don't get much birthday presents always. Thank God, throughout my 21 years of life, I've been with my family during my birthdays; doesn't matter whether we celebrate it or not....being together is what matters most... (awwwh....)

Anyway, talking about getting birthday gifts, I think it's really easy to get gifts for girls than getting for guys. Serioulsy, I don't think I've had that much of problem and headache getting gifts for my girlfriends or any other females for their birthdays. But guys; dad, bro, friends, any guy at all, it's really hard getting a gift for them...Coz everything that comes to your kind, in the end, you just feel that it'll not be a suitable gift....

So, the solution, after the long hours of dissapointment and sadness, I just wish them....that's it, that's all I can do :(

But, I think wishing someone for their birthdays is a great way of making them feel good, making them feel that they're remembered. At least I feel so. So, I live with the Golden Rule; Do to others as you want them to do to you.

So, if I know it's your birthday, I'll definitely try my best to wish you, at least just send a short message, hoping to make your day a little better. Well, if I don't wish, means, I'm not in a situation where I can wish you....haha.....

Christmas is coming soon.........though its Christmas everyday for me....lol

25 benefits of being single..like me :) well, some of it may not apply for now, but yeah.....:)

1. You can go out on Saturday night with your gal pals and not have to explain yourself when you get home.

2. You can have the TV remote all to yourself.

3. You don't have to wash smelly socks, skid-marked underwear and (ugh!) hankies.

4. You can have the whole couch to yourself.

5. You can sob all you want when you watch chick flicks with your girlfriends - and they won't laugh at you.

6. You can eat cookies in bed and not worry about the crumbs getting on his side of the bed.

7. You don't have to worry about what the bathroom smells like when you leave it.

8. You don't have to listen to snoring and farting all night (unless it's yours, and then it doesn't matter!)

9. Nobody sees what you look like first thing in the morning when you forgot to take your makeup off the night before.

10. You can stay in the shower or bath as long as you like.

11. You don't have to share your razor with anyone.

12. You don't have to have a bikini and leg wax once a week.

13. You won't have him saying "You're not wearing THAT, are you?"

14. You get the whole bed to yourself.

15. You can have PMT as bad as you want without having to explain anything.

16. You never have to sleep on the wet patch.

17. There's no curfew and no explaining to have to do.

18. You can have that gorgeous pair of Jimmy Choo's you saw without having to say, "Oh, these old things!"

19. You can sit and read a book without feeling guilty that you should be doing something else (like housework)

20. You don't have to worry about being nice to your mother-in-law.

21. You can lick the ice cream spoon, put in back in the carton, then back in the fridge and no-one cares.

22. You can wake up in the morning with "dog breath" and you don't have to jump straight out of bed to go clean your teeth.

23. The credit card is yours to do whatever you want with.

24. You don't have to explain your outrageous friends to anyone else.

25. When you're single, you can enjoy the peacefulness of your own mind.

Does God punish?

My friend sent me a message today bout how he thinks God is punishing him because of the way he has been and the wrong things he has done, and the way he has been living his life. He was telling me how he thinks that God has unique ways of punishing people and how it falls at the right time? He also said that God knows what would hurt him the most, and that's what He's doing.

Is that so? Does God punish? Even if He does, is that it? He hurts us? Or is there still hope? Is there still forgiveness?

I believe God always gives a second chance to all who actually admit they've been wrong and they've been doing mistakes, I believe there is still hope and God forgives, no matter how terrible we can get. That's why He sent His son to the world to die on the cross for our sins. Like it is written in John 3:16- For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever that believes in Him shall not perish but have an everlasting life.

That worse basically sums it all up; His love for us, His sacrifice for us, how he just loves us so much that He's willing to give up His beloved Son to die on the cross for OUR sins, though He is blameless.

There's is a second chance for us to turn back from our wrong doings and to go back to Him, asking Him to guide us, help us out, to be with us, teach us, and give us strength so that we will not return to the old road of darkness.

However, God never said that its gonna be easy.

Yes, we will still face the consequences of our actions. Why? I'm still looking for the exact answer for that. But I believe, if God only forgives us and said we don't have to face the consequences of our actions, many would take His grace of forgiving us for granted. They'll end up doing mistakes, doing things that they not supposed to do, then just say sorry to God, then do it again, and never really turn back from their sins and wrong deeds. It just makes it seem like God's forgiveness is so cheap. Maybe that's why we still have to face the consequences of our actions. Best example to describe this would be King David. He did do mistakes, he did commit sins. He asked for forgiveness but he still faced the repercussions of his wrong deeds. But God was still with him. He was still guiding him.

God's love for us is so awesome, and no one can compare to that.

He is ALWAYS waiting for us to turn to Him for help and strength and wisdom, in everything we do. We just have to ask Him. God does forgive. Though we will still face the consequences of our actions, He will still be with us to go through it. It believe so.

Sleep vs Study

So ironic how we can indulge ourselves into sleep so much, especially during finals.

You tell yourself that you have to study and focus on studying, but somehow, you just end up falling asleep, and you sleep SO much that it becomes your main activity for the day.

Just like me, since last night I've been telling myself that I should be studying and use the free time wisely to study and not sleep more than I need. Yes, I did study, but ended up sleeping.

And the very weird thin about me is my biological clock; it doesn't function the best from night till morning, it functions the best from evening to night. If I manage to get a three hours sleep anytime from evening to night, I'll be so fresh and fine, but when I try to be normal like others, and sleep at night late night or early morning till morning, I just don't seem to be able to waking up at the right time. And even if I wake at the right time, I tend to MAKE myself to sleep back. I'll wake up every one hour once, force myself to go back to sleep, till its already very very late.

How do I overcome this?

How to change this?

Its really gonna be hard for me if I remain like this. Why can't I at least try having a normal biological clock...

Surrendering to God is one thing, when He IS actually helping you out, like waking you up the time you SHOULD wake up, but its you who forces yourself to go back to sleep, then its not the devil you should blame or say that God is not helping you..

Its YOU who needs to have some discipline!

Yes, SHEREN, its you!

Last Saturday's CF: We did some kind of activity which was really fun and also ended up meaningfully for me. Really want to share on this.

This picture we came up with, is based on the concept of Passion of the Christ.
The cross with the nails: representing Jesus died on the cross for all of our sins, which is then linked to the earth in the heart shape; the earth represents all of us, the heart shape represents His passion and love for us, that He was willing to die on the cross for us; to wash/cleanse our sins. The hands represents God holding us every moment of our life, through everything we go through. He has never ever abandoned us. Thus, His passion and love will always remain the same for us. No greater love than this can you find anywhere else. And the verse; John 3:16; the best verse to describe the Passion of the Christ for us :)
The drawing reminds me of sunday school days, but its really meaning full. Thanks to K.Fung. His sharing gave a double impact to me :)

Exams...

In the midst of finals now. 3 papers down, 4 more to go. It has been quite the same like always; the attitude, the environment, the people's reactions, exam fever (duh...), and the things that are happening in between. What's different? Maybe my reaction/response to how things are....or maybe that was just in the beginning. Now, it's like quite hard to still have the positiveness after how things are happening.

One thought just crossed my mind: Why my lines always seem to be having indirect meanings and content?

Its the issue about trust again. Maybe its because I don't want to reveal lots of things about myself, and maybe my thoughts too. Afraid of how people would react to it or how they will take it. All these because of experience; experiences of sharing things to people, people I had my trust in, and how it was betrayed (sounds like a high-school girl dilemma, isn't it?)

Well, anyway, getting back to the issue about exams.

It has to happen and is happening. 4 more papers to go. Can I make it? Can I do it? Can I do it well? I believe there's still hope. And with God by my side (I know He is), I know I'll be able to do it...but only IF I'm totally relying on Him and also doing my part; through the wisdom He has given me.

It's time to study now...

Lie and truth...

Some girl just got to know that she has been living in a lie, which has been affecting her for a long time and thought it would be something that might be affecting her too in the future, and also made her to reveal the dark side just to make it seem that it's alright without thinking of how it would affect in the future and also to the other part after knowing that the dark side has been revealed, which and is thinking whether the truth was all true how true it is and whatever is yet to come, will it be true and even the lie, is the lie a lie or the truth is that the truth was a lie.

Complicated?

Confusing?

Tell me bout it.....

Don't even know what else have I been missing, what else has been a lie, what IS actually the truth.

Not only its complicated and confusing, it's also very very very painful........hurts so much.

Never felt this bad for quite a long time....

Well, this might not really be a appropriate post to start up with my new blog, but this is the only thing that is running in my mind now...

Trully need His guidance and stregth to go through this...